standing here alone, without you.

I WANT THESE FOR XMAS:D

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 14:56:08 GMT

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hopefully get most of them.
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they're on my Christmas cum Birthday Gift Lists:D
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Perceptions of Love

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 02:18:40 GMT

From a dear friend,
Love must be an excercise of choice.
Two people love each other only when they are quite capable of living ,
without each other but choose to live with each other.

From a dear friend,
feels that the genuine lover always perceives the beloved,
as someone who has a totally seperate identity.
And will actually encourage and respect this individuality.
Failure to perceive and respect that causes much problems in a relationship.

There is a time, reason for pain and sufferings.
When you get persecuted, humiliated, not respected with dignity, being threatened, spoken ill about,
everything. The enemy cheers!
There is a time, when your limit of patience & tolerance limits,
it is a time to let go of everything, cos' it wont be your loss.
Harbouring the truth and your personal feelings would, save your dear life.
Truth hurts, life's worst, what's love then?

What would you do when people seemed to have perceived you the wrong way,
when all you could is to walk away, and never look behind.
& let everything pass by.
never looking back, for regrets.

no matter what you have done to me, i cant find a reason to
despite you .
despite what you have done and chose.
just never return.

/blessyou, & thankyou

happy belated bday babe.

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 06:19:13 GMT

happy 18th amanda! :D

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 05:58:11 GMT

christmas, christmas, christmas.
christmas isn't christmas at all.
yes it is the season of giving.
but people are paying more attention to pressies instead of our creator.

anyway.
life still continues.
despite what rough time i've had this year.
well sweety and sunnay would be happier now.
and i'm sure you both are.

as for christmas i wished for something that's not of materalized.
for the first time.
but it's something i'll never get back.
no matter how bad things are,
no matter whether there's no turning back.
we had a taste of it.

and if we learn't to realise things before it's too late.
only then it'd be good.
only then it could be salvaged.
but when you realised it before it's too late, yet you're a step slower.
my christmas wish was to have a chance and prove myself.
seemed like it's gone.

bye sweetheart.

.
.
.
.
.
.

Natalie & intercessors.

i will miss you love.
and i'm sorry.
there is repentance but there's no chance.

one woman , one desire, one christmas

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 12:48:58 GMT

life has been great. :]
just getting tiring after a while.
seemed like it'll be,
'one woman, one desire, one christmas' this year for me.

i've been utterly busy recently.
ever since the closure of school.
i have been attending every camp which needs me.
:D
first was 3D yiss prep camp.
second was SFA con1 camp 3D.
third gonna be YISS LIBERATION 2008! 5D 4N.
it was exteremly tiring. as it's like 3 WEEKS OF CAMPS!
with so much spiritual included.

:D
i guess the encounter that me, gab, lincoln, isaac had in SFA con1 camp.
was to boost our spiritual level.
like a mini spiritual prep before yiss.

hey people!
we need LOADS OF PRAYERS for yiss this thursday the 14th dec.
PRETTY PLEASE! :D

perhaps life is getting better without you sunshine. :D
but still i do miss you& sweety

never will be, substitute

Wed, 26 Nov 2008 06:41:34 GMT

just wanted you to know that.
you aint, never was , never will be, a substitute.
i reassure you that.

though you no longer retaliate to what i say to you.
but somehow i know you do read my sms, and ponder about them.
yet, sometimes pride and ego are really hard to put them down.
if you really did desire something badly, grab hold of it and nature it before it's too late.

till a point, you know you do miss someone.
but you don't wanna show it.
perhaps being afraid of the consequences once you show it.
but never the less, you need not worry.
god will guide you.

just don't hide it too long, yah.
:]

9days more

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 15:00:21 GMT

I CHANGED MY NUMBER. temporarily.
:]

wedding of the year!

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 09:41:38 GMT

LEO & CASS'S WEDDING.

held at OLPS church.

i miss you sunshine. :[

metta shinelight.

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 10:38:55 GMT

HEY! that's jacky.
hey jacky. thanks for coordinating the entire event at school.
yes you're extremely tired. but. never the less. WELL DONE CREW! =D

METTA SHINELIGHT 2008 @ ITE CE

okok. i was extremely exhausted.
i had to wear my black dress, + heels.
and i had to attend leo & cass's wedding! =D
so i was on my heels for more than 9hours!
omg. yes.
those were 2 those girls that kept sticking to me tightly.
you know honestly metta school,
those kids aint our average kid.
they're hyper active. but they're super adorable! =D

maybe time is passing real quick.
it seemed to be healing.
nevertheless. 19 DAYS MORE!

dearest flame, please dont die out

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 02:48:54 GMT

dearest flame, i know you're already dying.
slowly bit by bit, day by day, event by event.
you're already getting darker and darker.
seemed like those stormy nights are re-approaching again.
truthfully, i'm un-prepared.
but what might happen would catch me without noticing.
all the past precious memories,
so vivid & passed quickly.

i wished he'd do something about it ,
if it really affects him somehow.
despite how difficult it may be.
the most just latch me tightly.

i wish the last second before it's too late,
dearest flame, dont die out on me.
though it seemed like faith , hope is almost gone.
it feels so helpless.
but it's okay.
21 days more. :[

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 10:42:41 GMT

i was just browsing some previous conversations.
which happened quite some time ago.

if it's hard for me now, it'll be harder for sunshine.
to think he has to make choices that involves the welfare of the both of us.
even if it does means ''no go'' for now, who knows what actually happens in the future right.
yes but even if in the end we still do get together somehow, it'll be the toughest times we have to face together.
to work things out, to even help each other. all the consequences, challenges we have to face them.
yes there are differences between us.
our denominations, ministries. etc.
as for the desire, yes you did gave in.
on that faithful day.
but ever thought even if we're still dating, we have to strive together to endure whatever temptations we occur.
perhaps we both aint ready now.

but with all these obstacles, doesn't it makes you stronger?
it'll surely make us stronger.
even for now the challenges we are facing even trying to not show each other our true feelings,
if not we might melt. lol.
it does strengthen us.

but i still hope, the last hope that i have.
is that you could be able to latch me to you despite everything.
yes we can still grow in our own ministries, this is the time for us to get stronger.
to be able to face difficult situations in future.
but who said ''two hearts cant beat as one'' ?
''when two hearts beat as one''. it makes the both stronger in faith even.
even getting to know each other even more and deeper, helps.
you need not get together officially.
most important is the both know each other completely.
and is able to be there for each other.
ever heard of my coordinators dating for 10over years. and finally they're getting married by god's grace.
after all god has put them thru, they managed to work it all out.

i do miss you. :'[

we'l all get better. i'm sorry.

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 13:35:50 GMT

i'll soar on wings like angels.
i'm sorry for complicating the both of you.
sweety should be mad at me, i'm sorry sweety you just ought to learn to latch me.
sunshine, you'll be fine after 22days from today.
when all that happened was just a nightmare.
you wont realise it till it's over.
what happened was just like a make belief story.
it just vanishes so fast.
when you wanna grab hold to it, you no longer can.
but to pray you'll get better.

when i saw you at school that day, you just melted my heart and i didnt wanna shoo you away.
i was just too happy to even have you near me.
& your pats. lol.
i just miss you even more when i know i wont see you again after 22days from now.
it'll be totally over.
already things at home, school, church, ministry, friends everything is already so screwed up for me.
if i could i would choose to take some potion and forget everything.
so things wouldnt feel so awkward , heart aching.
but you seemed alright.
i feel more at ease now.
a part of me feel confused now.

if i could catch you, i would.
let's just see before the 4th of dec, would you latch me despite everything?
despite all the barriers we have now sun, would you just latch me to you?
& pray, have faith that things will work out fine.
if you are serious, and till now want me but still cant have me.
same here my dear.
the fact that till now we still have to sacrfice, it's already hurting us both so much.
if we really want each other despite everything, cant we just latch us?

Wed, 29 Oct 2008 02:29:05 GMT

IT'S OVER!

ella is also too hurt to even wanna know what's gonna happen next.
ella needs tons of prayers. especially for strength, protection.
ella prays that god will send her guardians angels to be there with her in this difficult heartbreaking situation.
and know that it'll be alright after a long time.
only then we are able to grow.

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 18:24:23 GMT

AAAAH! GOD! REVEAL MORE LEH! :]

haha sunshine and me.
well i'm waiting for god to REVEAL MORE.
stop your hints god. lol.
you're getting me too anxious, exited, confused!
sunshine. let's just wait.
there must be a good REASON why god revealed those.
:]
pray more man.

my gosh.
it's 2.22am NOW!
in erm.
6 HOURS MORE!
i've to wake up and head to holy trinity BY 9AM!
day 2 of con 3 camp.

I MISS YOU SUNSHINE :]

What hurts the most.

Thu, 23 Oct 2008 15:30:56 GMT

There's an ocean between us;
You know where to find me;
You reach out to find / touch me, I feel you in my heart.
Over the lifetime still those are forever;
It hurts to remember you are only an ocean away.

what hurts the most is to know you're here with me, yet still so far.
what hurts the most is to know that after everything there's still an ocean between us.
what hurts the most is to know that without sacrificing, we cant be united as one.
what hurts the most is to see your gloomy eyes peeping at me.
what hurts the most is to know what you want is so difficult to get.
what hurts the most is to still feel you here with me always.
what hurts the most is those lovely memories.
what hurts the most is you try to do all you can in the end there's still a barrier.
what hurts the most is not to have the one you love with you.
what hurts the most is to know that you're in my heart.
what hurts the most is to pray that god will change our future.

when you heart is filled with sorrow and despair ;
i will carry you when you need a friend ;
you find my footprints in the sand.

there's nothing i can say to you;
nothing i can ever do to make you see;
what you mean to me.

all the pain and tears i cry;
still you never say goodbye;
still i will never know how far you'll go;
i know i let you down.

if i could do something to stop all these things from happening.
i would do it on my own accord just for you.
just to have you in my arms again.
even if i have to put a false smile on when i see you,
know that i still miss you & that it still hurts badly.
i will be okay.
i just need time.

dear sunshine.
:]

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 14:35:11 GMT

days are getting better now. :]

oh no! tmrw is WSS. @ ite CE.
wss is world skills competition singapore.
and dang i am involved in all the days. non stop rehearsals + runarounds!
not forgetting skipping of tons of classes! :]

everytime i see you, you get closer to my heart.
even the way you look into my eyes or hold my hand.
how i wish i could just freeze this present, wouldn't it be just awesome.
dear sunshine.

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 15:42:30 GMT

HAVE FAITH JO.
keep holding on jo.
don't give up jo.
be strong jo even if you feel like giving up.

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 15:20:10 GMT

dear sunshine.
day by day you catch my attention.
it excites me yet scares me.
how i wish this moment could continue all while.
thanks for putting a huge smile on my face everyday :]

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 14:29:33 GMT

hooooray! i'm going for PASSION WORLD TOUR! @ KL.

:] it's a pity that sweety refused to go. BUT.
it's okay. i have bunk mates like aunty deee & thelma :]

heng might be coming and joshie too.
pray that it'll be a wonderful experience.

thanks sweety :]

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 13:58:40 GMT

i don't miss 2006.
but i love 2007 -2008 and counting =D

planet love was a blast, though it was really hard to be the stage manager cum makeup+ hair head.
i love my tec crew!

aww sweeety.
haha sorry sweeety it was captured when you gave me a peck before i went to start running the show :)
but it was awesome :)
thanks lovely.
it was even the best shot taken for the entire planet love concert @ raffles jubilee hall.

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 12:28:55 GMT

i thank god we're fine now :]
i thank you for still loving me ;]
i love you sweety :]

a depressed nightt

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 16:43:36 GMT

love, when i said i love you. i really did mean it.
when i said i missed you, i really did mean it.
when i said i'm really happy with you by my side, i really mean it.

a countless thoughts and emotions running through my head now.
just what you said just now was unexpectedly sad.
i went there today for the concert with an eager heart.
just to see you and be with you.
though i had to sit with ymm, i was waiting for it to quickly end.
so i can run up to you and embrace you.
and give you a peck.
things were still alright.
till we went out, and were waiting for the rest.

i said i was hungry and i didnt have lunch and dinner.
and i was having gastrics.
yet your stc friends wanted to go back telok blangah and have supper.
and my house is just behind the field at expo.
you were deciding to go or return home.
in the end you wanted to go home.
and you just said bye.

and i followed you.
till you asked why am i not going with the others.
when i did not see you for the entire week and also we wont see each other on sunday.
as i have real work at school. =(

today would be the only day we could spend time together.
but we did not.
yes i now when i slapped you, i was extremely angry.
and i shouted at you.
i just cant believe what you said to me while walking me to my bus stop.
those words were just heart breaking.

it's as if you are no longer the sweety i once knew 2 years ago.
it is just very upsetting.
to think that i went there happily and all i get was ...
fair enough.
before i boarded the bus.
netiher did you hugged me , gave me a peck and even say bye baby i love you.

with those hurting words you said, and the body language you gave.
i went home hiding in my room.
still i havent had dinner.
hiding in my room and crying my heart out.

cause it seemed like there's no hope for us.
i'm sorry.
and i love you.

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 17:56:48 GMT

i miss you sweeety.
and i miss you too bestfriend.

F-A-M-I-L-Y doesn't seemed like a family at all.
people falling out with each other.
wanting me to stop being friends with church friends. 0_0
that WILL SO NEVER HAPPEN.
being suicidal. with those drama actions of sharpening the knife, offing the lights hiding in the kitchen.

DO YOU KNOW HOW PISSING OFF IT IS AND DISTURBING.
momma.

you know i have been reflecting on sweety and i, but have not come out with a conclusion yet.
it sucks having to choose your bf or your best friend.
especially when both means a lot to you.
it's not that i don't love you sweety.
just that i cant leave my best friend out too can i.

now, i am so caught out.
i cant seem to fall asleep.
i am too awake.

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 15:18:53 GMT

do what you want. i cant really be bothered with what you have to say now. so go away so you can ease my sorrow.

Ignorance is bliss
You'd always hear me say
But at times you can't deny
Those eyes lookin' your way

Let me begin by saying what I mean
It's a crime against the heart you know
To be somewhere in between

Well don't be shy
I've got an open heart and hand
And I just might have to confess just where I stand

'Cause lately you make me weaker in the knees
And race through my veins baby every time you're close to me
Take me away to places I ain't seen
They say you've got a hold on me'
And I Won't Disagree

Rock a bye my baby
Don't be blue tonight
Oh I'm on my way
And I'm gonna make it right

'Cause I've got the feeling
You'll be needing love
And of all the lonely hearts
You're the one I'm thinkin' of

I've been told it's gonna take an iron hand
To break the mold and stand above all of the rest

school has been alright. with the 3 weeks holidays. =D
guess what. my teacher called me today, said that i'm the only one she has chosen to work part time in a spa at orchard!
and that it was those high end spas. hoooooooooo
she said it is CONFIDENTIAL. haha.
i'm very excited. yet i have to call up the lady. =(
and i feel nervous cause i'll be all alone in the beauty industry at the age of 17. for hands on and experience.
and to gain reputation.
i'm dreading to go for an interview, looking professional and have an image.
sigh.
teachers always think that i'm always in tip top image.
with those standards of my lecturers that i have to withstand. sigh.
i'm tired.

love, i just hope you'll just be there for me.
and not to annoy me all the time.

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 15:48:11 GMT

these are partly the people i have been hanging out.
well mostly bradley and tony =D

being bored at home and feeling stressed at school.
presenting my clowns!

bradley.

TONY!

Anthony

yeah and to that sweeeety of mine, i miss you.

bradley makes me laugh till i end up having headache.
and us making fun of tony =D hooooooooo.
dont i just love these people?
like bradley, i hang out with him whenever either i'm bored,
skipped school ( you know how near my school is to east point =D).
OR. he'd entertain me when i'm falling asleep in lecture at school.
thanks tony for always being the victim of our 'nasty' jokes.
we love you tony =D