From a dear friend,
Love must be an excercise of choice.
Two people love each other only when they are quite capable of living ,
without each other but choose to live with each other.

From a dear friend,
feels that the genuine lover always perceives the beloved,
as someone who has a totally seperate identity.
And will actually encourage and respect this individuality.
Failure to perceive and respect that causes much problems in a relationship.

There is a time, reason for pain and sufferings.
When you get persecuted, humiliated, not respected with dignity, being threatened, spoken ill about,
everything. The enemy cheers!
There is a time, when your limit of patience & tolerance limits,
it is a time to let go of everything, cos' it wont be your loss.
Harbouring the truth and your personal feelings would, save your dear life.
Truth hurts, life's worst, what's love then?

What would you do when people seemed to have perceived you the wrong way,
when all you could is to walk away, and never look behind.
& let everything pass by.
never looking back, for regrets.


no matter what you have done to me, i cant find a reason to
despite you .
despite what you have done and chose.
just never return.

/blessyou, & thankyou

christmas, christmas, christmas.
christmas isn't christmas at all.
yes it is the season of giving.
but people are paying more attention to pressies instead of our creator.

anyway.
life still continues.
despite what rough time i've had this year.
well sweety and sunnay would be happier now.
and i'm sure you both are.

as for christmas i wished for something that's not of materalized.
for the first time.
but it's something i'll never get back.
no matter how bad things are,
no matter whether there's no turning back.
we had a taste of it.

and if we learn't to realise things before it's too late.
only then it'd be good.
only then it could be salvaged.
but when you realised it before it's too late, yet you're a step slower.
my christmas wish was to have a chance and prove myself.
seemed like it's gone.

bye sweetheart.


.
.
.
.
.
.

Natalie & intercessors.







i will miss you love.
and i'm sorry.
there is repentance but there's no chance.

just wanted you  to know that.
you aint, never was , never will be, a substitute.
i reassure you that.

though you no longer  retaliate to what  i say to you.
but somehow i know you do read my sms, and ponder about them.
yet, sometimes pride and ego are really hard to put them down.
if you really did desire something badly, grab hold of it and nature it before it's too late.

till a point, you know you do miss someone.
but you don't wanna show it.
perhaps being afraid of the consequences once you show it.
but never the less, you need not worry.
god will guide you.

just don't hide it too long, yah.
:]

9days more

i was just browsing some previous conversations.
which happened quite some time ago.

if it's hard for me now, it'll be harder for sunshine.
to think he has to make choices that involves the welfare of the both of us.
even if it does means ''no go'' for now, who knows what actually happens in the future right.
yes but even if in the end we still do get together somehow, it'll be the toughest times we have to face together.
to work things out, to even help each other. all the consequences, challenges we have to face them.
yes there are differences between us.
our denominations, ministries. etc.
as for the desire, yes you did gave in.
on that faithful day.
but ever thought even if we're still dating, we have to strive together to endure whatever temptations we occur.
perhaps we both aint ready now.

but with all these obstacles, doesn't it makes you stronger?
it'll surely make us stronger.
even for now the challenges we are facing even trying to not show each other our true feelings,
if not we might melt. lol.
it does strengthen us.

but i still hope, the last hope that i have.
is that you could be able to latch me to you despite everything.
yes we can still grow in our own ministries, this is the time for us to get stronger.
to be able to face difficult situations in future.
but who said ''two hearts cant beat as one'' ?
''when two hearts beat as one''. it makes the both stronger in faith even.
even getting to know each other even more and deeper, helps.
you need not get together officially.
most important is the both know each other completely.
and is able to be there for each other.
ever heard of my coordinators dating for 10over years. and finally they're getting married by god's grace.
after all god has put them thru, they managed to work it all out.

i do miss you. :'[

 

what hurts the most is to know you're here with me, yet still so far.
what hurts the most is to know that after everything there's still an ocean between us.
what hurts the most is to know that without sacrificing, we cant be united as one.
what hurts the most is to see your gloomy eyes peeping at me.
what hurts the most is to know what you want is so difficult to get.
what hurts the most is to still feel you here with me always.
what hurts the most is those lovely memories.
what hurts the most is you try to do all you can in the end there's still a barrier.
what hurts the most is not to have the one you love with you.
what hurts the most is to know that you're in my heart.
what hurts the most is to pray that god will change our future.
if i could do something to stop all these things from happening.
i would do it on my own accord just for you.
just to have you in my arms again.
even if i have to put a false smile on when i see you,
know that i still miss you & that it still hurts badly.
i will be okay.
i just need time.

dear sunshine.
:]

days are getting better now. :]




oh no! tmrw is WSS. @ ite CE.
wss is world skills competition singapore.
and dang i am involved in all the days. non stop rehearsals + runarounds!
not forgetting skipping of tons of classes! :]

everytime i see you, you get closer to my heart.
even the way you look into my eyes or hold my hand.
how i wish i could just freeze this present, wouldn't it be just awesome.
dear sunshine.

HAVE FAITH JO.
keep holding on jo.
don't give up jo.
be strong jo even if you feel like giving up.

hooooray! i'm going for PASSION WORLD TOUR! @ KL.

:] it's a pity that sweety refused to go. BUT.
it's okay. i have bunk mates like aunty deee & thelma :]

heng might be coming and joshie too.
pray that it'll be a wonderful experience.







thanks sweety :]

i don't miss 2006.
but i love 2007 -2008 and counting =D


planet love was a blast, though it was really hard to be the stage manager cum makeup+ hair head.
i love my tec crew!


aww sweeety.
haha sorry sweeety it was captured when you gave me a peck before i went to start running the show :)
but it was awesome :)
thanks lovely.
it was even the best shot taken for the entire planet love concert @ raffles jubilee hall.